My Ego

By Evie Andrejczyk

     “Oh you chopped it.  What a messy job!”

    The words really hurt my feelings and I was wishing she didn’t speak so loudly. This was a project we were working on at church summer school. My ability in cutting out cards was not perfected yet and I felt really frustrated with this teacher.

    My ego is like a train ride. It goes up and down and even stops sometimes to pick up new growth.  

   It also has been damaged by hurtful words at times.

    I enjoyed the attention I received in becoming prom queen and getting the lead role in the senior class play but soon that was in the past and down in the valley went the train.

    When I entered nursing school it became a whole new adventure but at a cost. I soon learned the reality of life with its joys and sorrows. Witnessing pain and suffering of others was a solid form of my maturing.  The sorrows that others have to face became part of my sorrows as did the joys of their lives. And the train ride continued.

    The adventure of marriage, raising a large family and seeing its growth brought me many joyful moments and a big boost to my ego but soon I realized there is still more to life.

    I realize now we have a creator who endowed us with particular gifts. How we employ  them or deny them can burnish our ego. It’s our choice.    

   It is good for me to thank God for all I have experienced in life however I end up or others see me. It is up to me and my God. The train continues and if I want to keep my ego healthy I will do whatever good I can in the time left on this journey.

    I have one request:  Don’t ask me to cut out pictures

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